Apparently...

I look like a 'boba' to some people... Okay, be that way, but when my rath falls upon you, please don't be surprised.
I might look like I don't know what I'm doing but you shall be very surprised when things come out in the end.
Don't screw with this chick... You don't know the real me. Nor will you ever.

Today is the day...

I'm so excited!!! Today is the day that we leave for the Dells. We have to wait for Joel and Jessica to get out of work, then we drive up there.

I took Mayalis to the park sprinkler's yesterday just to get her ready for this weekend. I'm so ready to get out of the city... And enjoy the time with my family and friends.

Let's get this done.

Pictures will be posted... Cannot wait.

Okay....

Okay... So I overreact sometimes... I know this. And so many people that know me know this... I don't mean to, but I feel so overwhelmed sometimes that I don't know what to do with myself.

Breathe... Breathe... Breathe... That's what I've been told. But I've been breathing my whole life. And I continue to breathe every day.

Relax... I've been told that too... But what's that. Even while pregnant I didn't know what that was either. I definitely need to learn the whole relax thing and soon... Or I'm going to run myself into the ground.

Thursday... 07/21/2011

Okay... So nothing really special going on today but feeling fabulous. I love feeling like this. I guess I needed to make this change in my life in order to find some happiness within myself.

I'm realizing that the only person that can make me happy first and foremost is myself... Cause if I'm not happy, no one else can make me happy. No matter how much I might love those surrounding me, I have to make myself happy before I can make anyone else happy.

And with how short life really is... I need to do this for myself. And for the sanity for those around me.

Getting excited...

Okay... So I'm getting excited about a little vacation that I will be taking this weekend... So can't wait to post pictures of all the fun things we will be doing.

Work is becoming so dull that the only thing that is getting me through this week is planning this little get away... Ha! Ha! Ha!

Can't wait to explore and share so much this weekend... Pictures are a must!! So I need to download all the pictures that are on my camera and charge it up!

And so excited about this blog also... And learning to upload text and pictures at the same time on the same blog... I want to become an expert. :-)

Okay... Only 30 minutes left at work. So going to keep a smile on my face and finish off the day.

Much love!

Here I go again

Okay... So here I go again...
How many times can one person say that they are going to start over with something before it can be said that no one will believe you? I want people to believe me, but I also want to believe in myself. Where is my motivation? When am I going to be able to reach my goals... To finally be happy with myself.

I want to enjoy every moment in my life... But how can you when I'm feeling down all the time or just not happy with myself. I want to enjoy all the seasons... Especially summer! I remember when I would wear a bathing suit and feel great in it... Now I'm forever looking for excuses on why I can't wear one. So pathetic!! Where is that girl that used to love showing off her curves... Made friends with everyone that she'd come across. I miss her... And I'm sure that a lot of my family and friends miss her too. She was no nonsense... She didn't care about what people said. She didn't see others as the enemy. She laughed a lot and cried very little... Now it seems like the polar opposite.

I want to flaunt my curves again... Have my husband see that girl that he once knew become the woman that she should have become. The woman that my young daughter can look up to and be proud to call her mother.

I want to go out again... Enjoy the night life with my family and friends.
I want to step foot outside and feel the sun on my face... And look at myself with a sense of greatness again.
I want to see new things and see old things with a new set of eyes...

And with this being the year that I turn 34 years old, I want to start enjoying life again.
And with God and my family and friends by my side... I will achieve my goals.