Have you ever felt like you were meant for so much more in this life but end up just being “complacent” in the here and now? We should never feel that way, no matter the situation. Every day that we wake up, we should have a grateful heart. Things will always have a way of being alright, as long as you believe that it will in your heart and mind.
We just need to focus on the good, which you would think would be easy but in life, but in our life we tend to focus on the bad because feeling “useless” is something that others – and even ourselves – tend to do to ourselves and that’s the feeling that overpowers the sense of good inside of us.
Do I want to feel “useless” or like a “failure” because of the should-of’s, could-ofs, would-of’s of my past? No, of course not but we tend to dive right into the deep end of those feelings really quick! There is so much more to life than what could have been. We swim against the current of life, instead of swimming with it so that we can see what else there is in life for us to accomplish. We are all afraid of the unknown, and of course it is just easier to “go with the flow” but nothing is ever gained with going with the flow when deep down inside we are all meant for greatness in our own lives.
In this life, I try so hard to turn things around for myself. I try to find the greatness in life but there are times that I am so weighed down by all the things that are happening, that I forget to open my “eyes” and see all the wonderful things that have been laid out in front of me. Do I mean to “forget” about the good in my life? No, of course not! I try to focus on the good because I know that feeling of “failure” or “useless” will go away but man, it’s a struggle. I need to what I can to make those demon feelings go away because I am way to blessed with the things in my life to be worried about the devil thinks about me. And by devil I mean the bad in this world. The devil comes in many shapes and sizes and comes in even the shape of people that you think that have your back or consider your family/friends. Just when you think that “people” will care and show you how they appreciate you, that’s when people show their true colors – when you are feeling your best or trying your best to make things right.
Don’t get me wrong, there are people in this world that will bend over backwards to see you succeed in your life and even go out of their way to cheer for your from the sidelines or stand right next to you in order to see you succeed. And those are my kind of people. I am all for rooting for others. We should be lifting each other up, not knocking each other down because you might feel threatened by change or threatened by someone bettering themselves.
I sound like I am rambling but I just wanted to get this off my chest. I want my daughter to one day see this posting and know that from the beginning, her mom was one of those people that believed in helping others isn’t about being weak but instead, it is something that makes you a stronger person.
And even though I haven't posted on a while, I needed to get this off my chest first before I start blogging again.
Writing helps me so much and I miss it.
