Great start!!

Starting weight: 233 (08/21/2012)
Weight at Weigh-In: 233 (08/28/2012)
Loss/Gain: -5
Current Weight: 228

So... as you can see from above, I have lost a total of 5 pounds this week. How exciting! I am so proud of myself! I am back on track with this program and I am feeling GREAT about it!! I couldn't feel any better! And I know that a loss of 5 pounds in one week isn't healthy, but I know that this loss is mostly water. I am going to be looking forward to those healthy losses of 1/2 to 2 pounds a week that WW says that I am capable of attaining.

So now I have to go into the upcoming holiday weekend with the same thought that I had when I first started, there is no stopping me now!

As long as I remember that, I should be able to focus on the important thing in my life right now - the loss of this weight.

Things are coming into place for me and I am loving it... so onward and upward.

I don't know what else to say... I am even more determined to get this weight off more than ever - especially since we have an upcoming trip to Costa Rica in December with the whole family. I want to look fabulous in a dress or even in a bathing suit.

But most importantly, I want to get this weight off for more energy to keep up with the little princess. I want her to look at me as her role model... I want her to know that eating correctly from the beginning is the way that you must live healthy.

And I want to look sexier for my hubby because he's been one of the biggest supporters in my journey. He deserves to have a sexy wife... and I want to give that to him.

And I want my parents to look at me differently. I want them to see a stronger me. I want them to see a whole different daughter. I know that they are proud of me, but I want them to be even prouder.

And with each passing day, I will make each of those goals come true.

Another manic Monday...

So okay... this weekends plans didn't go off like I wanted them to but I did spend a lot of time with my two little princes and my princess. It was a very good weekend for Mayalis as she got to spend time with her two favorite little men. It was great bonding time for the three of them.

Here we have a very "rare" picture of the three of them... my little "royal" party. :-)

But also this weekend, I was able to reflect on a lot of things... just the steps that I have to take in order to move forward for myself and for my family.

The walk that I took on Friday afternoon helped me a little bit... it cleared my mind for some things that I had been thinking about and opened my eyes to how others see things - how closed minded some people can be. As though the whole world revolves around them and just their problems or just them in general. Just because you don't like the way that I do things doesn't mean that you have the right to dismiss me or act like I don't exist. But that's okay, in the end, I am the one that matters to me and how you feel doesn't matter - as long as I am good in my mind. It's all about the mindfulness of myself and what I really need in my life.

Hopefully sometime before the end of the year, things will finally be in order for us to have our home... we certainly need that.

Other than what I just typed, nothing much going on with me... just another day at the grind.

The new job is getting interesting by the minute... I am not learning as quickly as I was learning at the district but the things that I am learning here are more in-depth. It seems that the information here just doesn't pertain to one district but each district is different in their needs so that's why I think that learning things here are so much different than at the district level.

First of all, at the district level, you are just learning the ropes for that district and the way that things work there. But working for the State, well, that all goes out the window because what worked at the district doesn't mean is the correct way or the way that another school district can do it. So it's back to the drawing board for learning for me... but I don't mind it all. It allows me to grow as a person. And growing is something that I don't mind doing at all. It allows me to be a better person.

Growing is something that we should always do... spirituality, mentality, physically. And to have someone tell you that you are changing is something that you should recognize as growth, not something bad - but if they feel that it doesn't "benefit" them (the way that you are growing), well, that means that they aren't someone that wants to see you grow as a person. And we all know that we have people like that in our lives... people are just so closed-minded to see that there are wonderful things to explore in life and only follow others, instead of trying to make a mark of their own in life.

Well, let me get off my virtual "high-horse" and get back to work... sometimes when you let something out and let how you feel out, things start to get weird.

So here's to another week - at that, the last week of August - and another great day.

First comes the weekend...

Thank goodness it's already Friday...

I just realized that I am writing my feelings in three different places... LOL!! I have an actual journal that I am writing out now. I used to type it up and put it in a binder but the binder is at home and the notebook that I am writing it in is pretty cute. LOL!

The second place I am writing is on the Weight Watchers blog site... there I write my fears/commitments/accomplishments that I have with my weight loss; even though I do write it in my journal and also on the blog here.

And of course, I have the blog here... I guess I am trying to keep myself accountable for all the decisions that I am making. Whether people are reading this or not; whether people are reading the one that I am typing on the WW website, I don't know... as long as I get my feelings out and I can always come back and read what I have wrote.

Just taking it one day at a time... life isn't a race. And I am not going to treat it as one. I just need to take in all the things that are around me and enjoy it. And only then will I fully enjoy life to its fullest.

But onto more positive news...
I am so happy that it is the weekend... and this weekend should be a good one. I have my nephews tomorrow morning - after they get their passport paperwork taken care of - and the four of us (the boys, Mayalis and me) will be hanging out. And then on Sunday, should the weather cooperate, we will be going to the zoo.

Sometimes I sit here and wonder about life... I sometimes sit here and wonder what the heck to write too... LOL!! But after a little while of writing, words just flow through my fingers - that doesn't happen all the time, but about more than 50% of the time, it does. Unfortunately, today isn't one of those days.

I don't feel inspired this afternoon... maybe it's because I am stuck inside right now. I really need to get outside and take a walk. Hopefully I will come back from lunch inspired to write something more than what I just wrote. LOL!!

Only 10 more minutes until lunch time... need to get some work done before I head out the door and into the sunshine.

Oh wow!!!

WOW... I don't even remember the last time I wrote here. But so much has happened but there is no way that I can ever go back and retrace my steps.

A couple of things that I can mention... the hubby and I finally traveled to Las Vegas!! And we had both a wonderful time and a bad time. But I guess you have to take the good with the bad, right? We traveled together for the first time since our honeymoon.

I joined a book club! Something that I have been wanting to do for a very long time. I was presented with the opportunity and even though I was very "scared" about joining a group of women that I didn't know, but I went and had a fabulous time. I won't be able to make it to the next gathering - they are going to watch a movie and talk about it - but hopefully I will see them again sometime before the end of the year.

An update on the little princess... she is getting so big. And talking up a storm. Her vocabulary is increasing each day and she is forming sentences on her own. My little girl isn't going to be little much longer.

She will be entering her second term of swimming lessons. During the month of July, I was busy running around on Monday nights getting her to Wright College so she can take her 30 minute lesson. It took more time to get there, get ready and get ready to go then the class itself. LOL!! But it was so worth it seeing her face light up when she saw the school from the car and hearing her say the words "swimming, mommy!" because she knew that she was going swimming.

And even though she really didn't learn anything... which is what I think... she enjoyed herself and I want her to have the skills of swimming for her own safety. You never know where this can take her.

And with classes starting again on the 1st of September, she is going to enjoy herself even more. I cannot wait to get into the water with her again.

And now about me...
Well, I fell off the Weight Watchers wagon... and gained back all the weight that I had originally lost. And I am so disappointed in myself. B-U-T... I have some great news......... I started up again! And this time around, I will not allow anything to get in my way of finally losing this weight. So this coming January, I want to see where I am with my weight loss. I am hoping that I am at least in the high double digits in my weight loss, and have already gained my key chain from Weight Watchers. That is my main goal... but my first goal is the 5% mark: which translates to a 12 pound loss for me.
Starting from the beginning but since I know that I have done it before, I should not have any problems doing it again.

So, this picture is of me at my starting weight... 233 pounds! YIKES!!! But sometime this year, I will be able to post another picture of myself looking much more thinner. Even if it is 5 pounds thinner... and with each major step, I plan on adding another picture of myself on here so that I can track the way that I look.

And another is that the anniversary of my dreadful morning of bad news is fast approaching. And I want to have some positive news in my life before then.

One bit of changing news is my new job! I am finally back downtown - where I have been waiting to be for almost 5 years - and my commute home is cut in more than half. I took a huge pay cut but knowing that I will be home earlier than I have been before makes up the difference. I am not as stressed as I have been in the past and I am learning something new each and every day. And according to Karla and Grissell, I sound much more happier in my emails to them. LOL!!

So with that, I will leave this blog here... I am sure that I will write again soon. I am so happy that tomorrow is Friday. We have big plans with the little princess this weekend and I am hoping that things turn out the way that they should.

Until the next time!