WOW....

I was just called out on several blogs that I posted... thinking that I wasn't going to get caught on what I wrote. WHOOPPSS!!! Sorry!! LOL!! I guess it might take some time before someone actually reads it but it will get read! :-)

So things haven't gone the way that I thought that it would... I dropped WW, cause I couldn't keep up. I haven't been back to school cause financial aid is being a d*ck. And work is just... work. Hoping for the best but expecting the worst, is the way that I see things now-in-days. What can I say... I'm such an optimist. LOL!!

I want to do good by my loved ones, especially my hubby and munchkin. But I feel that I am forever letting them down. Hubby claims that I don't let him down, but in my heart I feel that I am.

Am I a bad friend? Who knows... according to some people, I'm not. But then why do I feel that I am at times. Am I trying to live up to a standard in my head that doesn't exist? Why do I feel that I let down all those around me when I think that I am doing my best.

I have to say that I feel alone sometimes, especially when I am surrounded by people. Why is that?

I love to stop and smell the "roses" too, you know... see...

Why can't life be just this easy...

I love my family to death...


Here is my hubby and me... don't we look truly happy?!?

And here is the apple of my eye... my munchkin... my everything... the reason that I want to do everything that I can in this world...

Isn't she just beautiful?!?? Gosh... how was I so blessed with such a beautiful daughter!?

This is the story of my "crazy" life... I want it to be perfect. But how can I want it to be perfect if I am so flawed!?!?
I don't know the answer to that... but hopefully someday I will.

Here is a picture that I love so much... three generations of ladies...

I hope that I can be there for my daughter the way that my mother has been there for the both of us...

Am I over thinking things... most likely.
Am I wanting things in life that can possibly make me go crazy... quite true.
But why can't I just ask for what I am entitled to... the life that I want, the way that I want it.

Only God knows that answer!