04/02/2012

The second day of my blogging and the first night of my personal training! OMG! I am so nervous and excited at the same time! I am so looking forward to seeing what this trainer has in store for me. I am going to keep this trainer liable for anything that doesn’t happen! I will make sure that the gym is help liable for no results that come from this trainer… and I will NEVER use another trainer ever again if nothing comes out of this.

I know that the training is more tilted towards me and the effort that I put into it but we are paying for someone to get me results and damn it, I want results! So I am praying for myself – to give me the strength that I need to get the results that I need and want. And to also give me strength to get through any workouts that he might put me through.

My goal is becoming clearer and clearer each passing day… I am so excited for the results come the end of the year. I want to a totally different person. I said at the beginning of this year that this will be my year and by-golly I will make it my year. I am going to accomplish just about all that I have put out there to accomplish!

It is now 9 days until my princess’ birthday and 13 days until her birthday and 13 days until her birthday party… I am so excited for both!! She just keeps getting bigger and bigger right before my eyes. I am so amazed of her and everything that she is becoming.

Well, I must share that I got my period over the weekend… month 3 of getting it without any medication. Can someone overuse the word “excited” in one blog posting? LOL!! Okay… so I won’t say I am excited about getting it because how can you but I am thankful that I am getting it naturally again. I have defeated the doctors who said that I would not be getting my period ever again! And I will defeat them when I get pregnant!

I’m telling you, things are finally turning into the right lane for me and I am enjoying every minute of this ride.

This is the journey of a lifetime and those that are interested in coming along with me are more than welcome to join in. Every single day is a new challenge for me, and I face each one of these challenges head on. They test my strength, they test my faith and most importantly, they test me. I want to pass each challenge with flying colors.

I have been reading just about each night now… both for me and to Mayalis. I want her to have the same passion that I have for books. I want to find her one day in her room just lost in a book like I used to do. When everyone else is causing troubles, I was just reading about all sorts of places and people. I want her to have an imagination that will never cease. I want her to have all the opportunities that I
had plus more.

So I had my first personal training tonight and it was great. Thankfully I haven’t gained any weight since last week…. So a great way to start off a personal training session. My trainer took it a little slow with me –and he warned me that the next session he wouldn’t be so “nice” –so I was able to make it out of the gym on my own two feet. I felt GREAT!!! I can’t until my next session on Wednesday night at 6:30pm.

I am seeing the light…. The light is VERY far away but I do see a twinkle of light ahead of me. I am feeling a little more confident… and I can’t wait until I am feeling so confident that I don’t have to think twice about it.

Life is getting so much better for the three of us… and it will only get better.