And now that I am not feeling well, I decide to make it a priority to write.
Sore throat, ear ache, headache, stuffy nose... I'm a complete mess! But I am hoping that this all goes away so that I can get back outside tonight and go for another run.
Tuesday...
last night was great!
I was able to go running with both Liz and Lisa... we had a great time.
We didn't hit the 3 mile mark but we sure did come pretty close to it.
I guess I have to figure out what is a good three mile run around the neighborhood.
Monday...
so after working all day, I headed off to see our mortgage guy.
And OMG... I can't believe how long I was there with him at the bank! We didn't leave until almost 8pm! LOL! But that's okay... he gave me the information that I need to see if we can buy a house soon.
Keeping positive on this aspect of my life. ☺
Sunday...
Thank goodness I was at home... because I was able to accomplish so much.
FOUR loads of laundry washed, folded and put away! I am a ROCK star!
The princess and hubby enjoyed the weather outside while he checked on my car, tried to fix my father's boat and was putting together his bike.
He was even able to put together dinner for us... it was so yummy!!
Saturday...
What a wonderful day!
My friend Karla's daughter made her first communion and my mother, the princess and I were there to witness it. It was so beautiful seeing her in her gown.
After the church, we all headed back to Karla's house to have some food... and that's where we spent the rest of the day at.
The princess had a blast with all the kids... and even getting all muddy! LOL!
Thankfully she fell asleep in the car (and I had taken her a bath at Karla's house)... cause mommy and daddy went to the movies that night! LOL!
So when I left the princess with my mom, I raced downstairs to take a shower and get ready.
We went to see the original Blues Brother's movie with my friend Lisa and her brother.
It was such a great movie... I had never seen it on the big screen!
After the movie, we headed to Chinatown to have some late night grub!
It was finally 3am when we got home and stayed home!
Friday...
I guess this is the reason that I haven't really written anything because even though I was with my two loves and enjoying the whole day with them, this was the day that I met with the fertility doctor.
After getting everyone ready and out the door - the appointment was at 9:30am - we get to the doctor's office.
Of course the princess recognizes the office building and tells us that she is going to play with toys. LOL! Okay... whatever you say, darlin'!! LOL!
So we waited in the waiting area to be called to see the doctor... and like I mentioned on Thursday, I was going into this meeting with an open mind and heart and I did.
But it was the way that she looked at me, that I knew that she was going to say something to me that I wasn't going to like.
And my gut feeling was correct!
The doctor told me that my FSH levels were so high, that I wasn't going to be able to have a child on my own.
WOW... what a blow to my womaness feelings!
She mentioned something about using a donor egg and the hubby's sperm but at that point, I kind of tuned her out. I wasn't ready to hear something like that.
I don't remember much of the conversation... thankfully my wonderful and supportive hubby was there and got to ask all the questions that I guess he had been waiting to ask.
After being with her a little while... she gave us her cell phone number and escorted us the back door so that no one would see that I had been crying with her.
And then I lost it in the car... I just cried my eyes out.
I know that this isn't the end of the road for me... but I will be putting it on the back-burner so that I can concentrate on some other important things in my life.
So after gathering myself together, the three of us got some food to eat and headed back into the city to run some errands.
Drove around a bit... and we stopped at Stanley's Fruit Market to pick up some much needed fruits.
I love this picture of the princess staring at all the strawberries that were outside of the store!
She just kept yelling... BERRIES... BERRIES... BERRIES!!
It was just the cutest thing to see her get all excited about fruit! LOL!
And because the strawberries were SOOOO cheap...
We purchased 4 cases of them!!! It was great... $4.00 for 4 cases! LOVE IT!!!
Then it was off to Mariano's for some soup for lunch and get some other stuff that we needed.
And at the end of the night... it was dinner made by the hubby with nothing but fresh ingredients! It was soooo yummy!!
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| Wild rice with a chicken breast with avocado-mango salsa |
So now that I am caught up with my blog... I am hoping to be more on top of it.
I know that I didn't write out much of what went down at the doctor's office... it's just too raw for me to write about at this moment. I'm sure that I will be able write about it at another time.
Just need to shift my focus onto other things right now... and hopefully my body will get the picture.
But I am happy with myself and the direction that I am headed... so I hope that my levels (not just my FSH level) will start to come down so that I can see myself in a whole other light.
Wishing you all a wonderful afternoon and evening.
Sending love ♥... light ☼... happiness ☺... and music ♫
Hasta la proxima!
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