02/21/2012 - Part II

February 21, 2012 – Part II

Starting weight: 233.2
Current weight: 225.8
Loss/gain this week: +0.2
Total pounds loss since start: -7.4

Okay, I wrote this morning that I had a minor setback but after reading a few blogs throughout the day, I am not alone. In more ways than one, we are all in the same boat. We all have insecurities that we have to live with in life, in love and within ourselves. We are all just different versions of those insecurities… but we are all one, big happy Weight Watchers family.

I love reading about others gains and losses… it inspires me. It shows me that I so much more ahead of me to enjoy. I have so many opportunities to make things happen for myself. I have so much more to live for in the future.

Yes, most of us know at least one person that we look at and see that they don’t have those weight issues that we are so hung up on (but are taking care of with WW) but we don’t see everything that they do. They don’t have the weight issues but they have other issues that they might be dealing with in silence, like many of us did with our own weight loss.

Yes, most of us know someone that is need of help losing weight. But no matter how much we try to help, there might be something embedded within them that we just don’t see. For those that have that problem, I say, seek God. He will help you on your path and help you make the right decision. I know that I finally told HIM that I was tired of being overweight (in the obese part of the chart at the doctor’s office), I was tired not being able to keep up with my daughter, I am tired of the chest pains that I am still experiencing because of the extra weight that I am carrying… and He had me stay home one day and I saw the light – in the form of Dr. Oz and Jennifer Hudson on the television discussing Weight Watchers. Something inside of me clicked… and even though I haven’t lost all that much, I am happy with my current loss and I hope that I am able to continue on my mission to a more happier and thinner me.

Yes, some of know that one person that just brings you down, no matter how happy you might be that day – you DREAD just seeing them because they never have anything positive to share. Everyone is out to get them. Everyone around them is beneath them. Everyone else is at fault for their unhappiness.
To those people I say… be gone!
I have taken the bull by the horn and have decided not to associate myself with people like that.
It’s like most of our mom’s said to us growing up… if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.
And even though some other people I know associate with this person, I rather not put myself in that persons’ presence… my life has changed so much for the better ever since I decided to do that.

It does take a lot of time and energy to get life the way that you feel comfortable with… but when you want the type of life that you are proud of, then that takes even more thought process to it. You must walk through the weeds in order to find those flowers that want to be in your life. Those flowers that are a positive influence in your life are the ones that we sometimes overlook.
Those weeds can be anyone… family, friends, co-workers… but we must do right for ourselves because no one is going to do it for you. You must take your life back from those that want to drag you down with them.

I’ve never been a very confident person… WOW! I can finally say that! Just typing it out like that made it ever more evident to me that I need to boost my confidence more. And that is something that I am working on one day at a time.

My husband has noticed a huge change in my attitude and my mother has noticed that I wearing my clothes differently. I have some confidence about certain things. Like when I go out, I am spending hours looking for the “perfect” outfit when before I would just throw on anything I saw. I take the time to put on my make-up, fix my hair. I look forward to the nights out with my husband. Like this upcoming Saturday, we have a dinner reservation with some friends and I’ve been thinking about what I am going to wear for over a week now! YIKES! I’ve never been “that” girl before.

I think that for my own prom, I picked out my dress two weeks before and only because my godmother said that she would make it for me… I would have waited until the last minute to pick something out.

I am not saying that I have the perfect outfit for this weekend, but I am sure that I will be searching for something on Saturday, and I might even schedule an appointment for a make-up consultation that afternoon too! We shall see… I have to remember to bring the card for the guy that I met so I can call. LOL!

And I hope that a year from now... maybe sooner... I can finally be the person that I know is trapped inside of me.