March 27th, 2012

March 27, 2012
Alright... I didn't lose anything this week. I had a GREAT loss last week that pushed me onto the 10 pound loss mark but I screwed it up a bit.

That's okay... I'm human and I'm allowed to screw up here and there. But I really didn't want to screw up royally this week. I really felt like I was finally getting the hang of this - especially after 11 weeks of being on here.

I look at myself in the mirror and I see my face is thinner, my clothes are fitting me so much better... where did I go wrong?!?! I know that my weakness is the weekend, but I can't make that the excuse for the rest of my life. I have to stay on track on the weekends the same way that I stay on track during the week. I can't continue to hold myself back from the greatest achievement that I want to accomplish... my weight loss!

I want to see myself continue to grow mentality, as a person... and the weight to physically disappear. And I know that WW is helping me do that, but if I continue to stray off, I won't be able to see the real person that is trapped inside of me.

After seeing the numbers go up on the scale, I made a promise to myself last night. I need to make changes in my life and I need to make them NOW! So after my weekly meeting, I started making changes as soon as I got home.
I had some soup instead of the food that my lovely mother had cooked for all of us... I had a cup of Purple Acai and Blueberry Green Tea instead of diet soda and my water intake will of course increase (even though I take in a lot of water during the day already). But I need to make these changes for me if I want to see myself lose this weight that I have been struggling with for so long.

Setbacks will happen and setbacks do not define me... my accomplishments are what define me, and I will work on my accomplishments for the rest of my journey.

I will be faster in what I want to accomplish...
I will be better in what I need to do to accomplish my goals...
And in the end... I will be stronger because of it.

And because of my goal above, I will achieve the greatness that I believe that I so greatly deserve – not just for myself but for my family. They will see the hard work that I have done to get to where I need to be, and they will be proud of me. And that is the best type of reward one can ever acquire.

On another note, things in the realm of having another baby are slowly moving along. I have gotten my period on my own in both January and in February, which I am very happy about. We have been practicing very frequently on trying to have another one but it hasn’t happened yet.

So of course I will keep you posted on the progress of getting pregnant.
Only 15 days until my princess turns 2 years old and 19 days until her birthday party at Pump It Up. I cannot wait! Everyone that goes is going to have a fabulous time! 
And looking forward to tonight… not only am I going to have dinner made by the hubby, I will be using my Zumba game tonight. I cannot wait to try it out on the Xbox… it should be a great time!! And to work out all these pounds that I have to lose, it’s going to be a wonderful thing! I can easily burn about 800 calories in one hour of Zumba!!