A little reminiscing...

I did it again... another 5 days without posting! UGH!
I need to be on my "A" game! I need to get going on this blog and stay on top of it.
And I shouldn't have any excuses on not writing... I have the BLOG app on my phone. But I feel that I shouldn't be blogging from my phone when I need to spend time with my loves. So I resort to doing it here. LOL!

But I do have a lot to report on...

On Saturday morning, the hubby, Liz and I headed over to Soldier Field and ran the Lucky 7k!
Even though the weather was super cold - the first time that we actually had a day like this since we started running - we started the race off strong!

Unfortunately, the hubby hurt his shin and ankle during the race and we both walked the rest of the race together. We start together and we finish together... that's our motto!

Here is a picture of Liz and I before we left the parking lot:

We were feeling pretty fierce that morning... even though the weather wasn't cooperating like it had on other days. LOL!!

Here is the hubby and I before we got to the starting point:

You can tell that even the hubby was cold that morning... I couldn't believe how COLD it was and I wasn't prepared for it at all! :-( But thankfully the hubby purchase me a new Lucky shirt, while we were there, and I put that sucker on as soon as he gave it to me. 

And once we started running, the temperature internally starting going up! THANKFULLY because I thought that I was going to become an icicle while running. LOL! But like I mentioned earlier, we couldn't run across the finish line but we walked across the finish line together, holding hands!

Can you believe that we were taken a picture of while walking?!? While looking through the pictures that the event coordinators put up on the website, I found a picture of the hubby and I behind some other people!

Can you see the HUGE grin that I have on my face?!?! LOL! Even though we were getting pelleted with ice that was coming down, I still was glad that we had this opportunity to participate in this race.

And here we are, after the race with our medals - and the bagels, bananas and water that they gave us at the end.

After getting out of the cold, the three of us picked up the princess and headed out to get something to eat. We were starving after waking up early, participating in the race and especially being in the cold! LOL!

After we finished eating, we headed to the store to pick up some groceries and get a corned beef with all the fixings so that Joel can make it on Sunday.

So we drop off Liz at her house and then head home, which I was fortunate enough to be able to take a nap for a little while. The hubby and princess were awake watching television when I went into the bedroom.

Later that night, we headed to the hubby's uncles house for a family gathering.
The princess had a BALL with all the kids that were there...
We left there pretty late and of course the princess fell asleep in the car... and didn't wake up until Sunday morning! Thankfully! LOL!

Sunday was spent all day at home... and I loved every minute of it!

The hubby cooked... I cleaned up.... 
But in between all this... we relaxed together as a family.

That night, the hubby and princess baked cookies together... it was such a beautiful sight!

Our little princess just loves doing things with her daddy... she loves being around the stove, with supervision of course, and the sink getting her hands wet! LOL! Teaching her to be confident in herself from a young age! :-)

But onto another subject...

This is day 5 of finishing off my birth control pills... and no period as of yet.
I am trying really hard not to concentrate on the fact that without getting a period, the fertility specialist won't put me on the medication.
And I'm trying really hard to even think about it... but how can you not think about it?

I try my hardest to make myself think about other things... other things that are just as important to me, but I still find myself - in the dead of night - waking up thinking about it.

I am going to be waiting until Friday morning to contact the fertility specialist. I'm sure that if I call before then, they are going to ask me to wait at least until Friday to call back so why not just wait until then to call, right? And I'll probably have an appointment set up for Monday morning (there goes my plan for heading to the gym in the morning, probably) to have some blood work and an ultrasound.
But that is just me thinking ahead to Friday morning when I call...

Just taking it one day at a time... but I don't know what I should be feeling right now.

I guess this could be the reason that I am really unhappy...
Don't get me wrong, there are things that I am happy with but there are certain aspects that are really bugging me.

Here's a question... have you ever had a job somewhere that you ACTUALLY enjoyed waking up in the morning to go? I know, completely unheard of, right? But I know that it was true for me.

Back in October of 2003 (OMG, almost 10 years ago!), I started working at a magazine... and I can tell you that every single day of that job, I woke up feeling great and enjoyed the work that I did! I got there early, I stayed late... I learned so much while working there. But within 6 months before I was let go (December 2005), a lot of the management changed... my boss left and took one of the reps with him. Another rep left and someone else came on board to take her place. We got a new manager, based out of Michigan, and then the biggest change came... another rep from another magazine came on board and my whole world was changed.

From the beginning, I tried my hardest to help him out... but he wanted to change EVERYTHING. 
The way that we handled subscription holders, who was getting complimentary subscriptions, how we gathered information, to even how we would put the media kits together - this one he couldn't win because it was done a certain way all the way from corporate in New York City.
So when he came aboard, I had been working on our client list and updating it with all sorts of information from back when my old boss was around - this was a pretty HUGE list - and I wanted to make sure that I had all the correct information. So that meant going online researching and making phone calls, in between all the other things that I would do on a daily basis.

Well, it turned out that he thought that I was gunning for his job but that wasn't the deal at all. I found out from one of the original reps that was still around, that he wanted someone else for the position. He thought that I was too organized (HUH?) and too friendly with the sponsors of the show (I was friendly with them because the reps that signed them onto the sponsorship weren't around and I was the only person that they were still familiar with).
This guy was just out to get me... and get me he did.
He tried to make work miserable, but remember, I loved my job.
He tried to make work twice and three times as hard, making me do things over and over, but since I loved being there, I didn't care.

So at the beginning of December of 2005, there was a rumor that there was going to be downsizing... and I thought for sure that I was in a good position. I was surely wrong.

Two weeks before Christmas, he pulled me into his office and told me that my position was being eliminated at the end of the year.
He continues to tell me that I could either leave right there and then or continue to come in to use the resources there (like the printer, computer and fax machine) to look for work.

I sat in his office in SHOCK! I had tears coming down my face... I didn't know what to say.
He ushered me out of his office and back to my desk... still not knowing what to say.

I guess this was the last job that I completely, truly enjoyed... and I can't believe that it was almost 10 years ago that I had that opportunity to work there.

Apparently, in life, there are jobs that you can actually enjoy... and I am still trying to get there again. And hopefully someday I will get there!

Maybe this is something else that is bogging me down... making me regret some of the decisions that I have made in my professional life, like staying in my last job for almost 5 years, completely unhappy. 
I can't do that to myself... not anymore.

I am in a better position, mentality, maybe not financially... but I will get back to that financial stability that I once had, for my family. And I will have both... a job that I completely enjoy and the money that goes along with it.

And moving onto bigger and better things is what I am destined to do in my life.
I might be laughed at... talked about... but I do this for me, not for the praise or acceptance of anyone else.
I will jump back... I will be that person that was happy in her professional life.

Hopefully getting this out now will help me move on and start healing from other things... I pray that it does.

Thanks for reading... and hasta la proxima!