Friday... picked up at the train station by both the hubby and princess.
We went shopping for a few things and came back home to have dinner.
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| Mahi-Mahi, roasted Brussels sprouts and quinoa, edadmame salad Yummers! |
Saturday... dropped off at my cousin's house with the princess for a birthday party. The princess had a wonderful time at the party!
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| Holding her balloon animal |
After everyone left from the party, the hubby and my cousin decided to make the ladies dinner... and it was so yummy! Jibaritios and arroz con gandules... OMG! We had a wonderful dinner made by two wonderful men.
Then on Sunday... that was one of the best days that we have had with the princess in a long time.
We took the princess to the Sears Centre in Hoffman Estates for the CIRCUS!!!
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| The Princess getting her face painted |
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| The end result of her face painting |
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| Our family picture at the circus |
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| The view from our seats |
We go to the arena early so that we can get to see the animals and all the other things that was going on before the show.
And the show was a long one... I couldn't believe how long that show was! We got there at 12:30 and didn't leave the area until almost 5:00!
We went to get something to eat after we got out and then it was time to FINALLY head home.
I couldn't believe how tired I was after the show... I couldn't wait to get home and relax.
So now we get to Monday...
I had my appointment with the fertility clinic at 6:45am... so the hubby and I headed up to the clinic.
After getting my blood drawn and having an ultrasound done, I was ushered into a room to talk to the nurse. The nurse told me that my uterus lining was thin again, which was a good sign. The nurse gives me the medication to start that evening, once they get back the results from my blood work.
The hubby and I leave the clinic and he takes me to the train station so I can get to work.
Then the phone call from the nurse came around noon and my plans for the medication to start that evening went right out the window.
My FSH levels are high again - 25, it should be until 20 - and because of the levels being high, I can't take the medication.
So the nurse tells me to call her back next month when I get my period.
When I get my period next month...?? It's been 4 months since I had my period and this period was brought on by medication; so this nurse thinks I'm going to get another period on my own?!?
It feels like my plans have now vanished into thin air... for NOW.
I called up the hubby and told him the news... he went right into researching on how to lower my FSH levels and told me that he was going to call me right back.
When I researched on my end, the Internet mentioned that I can take Blue-Green Algae, Royal Jelly and Wheat Grass. Let's see if I can get those pills and start taking them.
The hubby calls me back a little while later and tells me that he has scheduled an appointment with an acupuncturist on Friday afternoon; thankfully I am off on Friday.
According to the website of the acupuncturist, she is a fertility acupuncture specialist and has helped other women get pregnant after they've been to see her.
So I am keeping my mind open to this treatment.
But it was on my way home that I was starting to feel heartbroken...
I get home, pick up the princess and go home...
I hang out with the princess and I start reading a book that the hubby purchased for me for my Kindle from a lady that was having problems getting pregnant because of high FSH levels.
OMG... the book really hit me hard!
I know that she mentions that she has two children - at the beginning of the story she only has one - but I am not sure how she gets it done.
I get the princess to sleep and I continue reading my book. I'm only on chapter 5 and I'm sure that I have a ton of reading to do in order to find out what worked for her.
The hubby comes home from work and we start talking... and that's when I lose it all again. I start to talk and cry at the same time, that I start to wonder if anything that I did say made any sense.
I start telling him that I don't want him or the princess to think that I don't appreciate them or love them with all that I am because I am so focused on getting pregnant or that my only concern is getting a sibling for our princess.
But of course, I have the most understanding husband ever, and he proceeds to tell me that he understands how important this is for me. How important it is to me to use all my resources until I have exhausted them all.
How he knows me so well!
I end up going to bed early because I am so drained... and that was the end of the night for me. I go to bed and decide that I need to continue reading the book to see where this other lady goes with her journey, so that I know where to go with my journey.
And here we are... Tuesday...
Just another day at work... and I'm looking forward to heading to the gym tonight.
It's been a long week away from the gym... and that's not comforting to me.
I have goals... and getting pregnant isn't just the only one... for this year and I need to keep myself on track.
So with that, I am going to leave this entry here.
Thanks for reading... and hasta la proxima!
And I will continue to try ending my day positively... so that I can continue with my life on the right foot.
This was a great weekend my love! I enjoyed everything that we did together.
ReplyDeleteI honestly wish I had an an answer to this small bump in our lives, I really do. I feel that life will always throw us a curveball just to keep us on our toes. I know that you have been through a lot in your life, even before you met me. Its been a hard journey for you, but I made my decision to love you through thick or thin the minute I proposed to you.
My heart felt you were the one and I couldn't have agreed with my heart more. Your innocence to life is amazing when its compared to my life. That's what I see in you, innocence. That was something that I lost at a very young age. I see that even with all that we have been through, you carry on. That's my motivation.
Don't worry my love. Things will soon get better and I will do whatever is in my power to not just help you, but show you how much I love you. I'm a very proud man to have such a wonderful woman in his life.
I love you eternally.