Strange feeling

Have you ever woken up from an night's sleep with a strange feeling?
A feeling that you just can't pinpoint? Not knowing if it's good or bad... whether or not it's a good feeling or a bad one.

All I know, is that I wish that I was back in the safety of my house, under the blankets... waiting for this work day to end so that I can get home, and get to the gym.
I want to pump some iron... and just get back home to relax with my two loves.

Things have been a little nuts in my head... I need some fresh air in my head, to be able to breath some fresh air into my lungs.
This has been a very long winter, as much as it is officially spring, we had a lot of snow come down on Monday and I am ready for full sunshine... the heat on my face, the cool breeze flowing through my hair. Being able to roll down the windows of my car or open the windows of my house... and just feel the breeze.

I am sitting here writing this out with tears in my eyes... I don't know how to feel right now.

I just want this feeling to just go away...
I want to feel normal again...
I want to smile and keep the smile on my face...

It's a short post... but it's a powerful one for me.
I am not admitting defeat because that isn't what this is... it is just a set-back. I will bounce back from this... just scared on how long it will take me to do so.