I lost it...

And think that it will happen again.
The other night I came to a crossroad - in my mind - as I laid in bed waiting for sleep to take me away.
As I finished up a game, my loving husband came home from work and I guess stared at me while I was playing a game.
When he came up to me and looked into my eyes, a years worth of pain just came over me and I started to cry.
And I couldn't stop... a flood of so many different emotions came over me.
Gasps of air... sobs just taking over my whole being.

But I am glad that I got that out... and I am sure that with time, I will do it again. It's just bound to happen because all this that I am experiencing is something that most people don't experience at the same time.

I am very grateful for the people that I have in my life, that's for sure.
Especially for the hubby who just let me get it out that night... and reminded me, by bringing our princess to me, that a little girl did come into our life and choose us as parents.

This little girl found me... and I am so extremely happy that she did because if she hadn't, I believe that this journey would have been even worse for me.

Well, this is probably one of the SHORTEST entries that I have wrote in one year of blogging... LOL... but I am looking forward to getting out of work today and spending time with my loves before hanging out with my girls for a birthday gathering.

I will be headed to Springfield on Monday morning so hopefully I will be able to blog that night... if not, let's see when.

Have a wonderful weekend... I know that I will. :-)

Hasta la proxima!