The last day of the year...

I got a feeling that tonight is going to be a very good night, along side my family and friends. A great way to end a good year and start off a new one.

And as much as I am excited about tonight, I am not sure why I can't find anything to write about myself today.

I do have something to reflect on... There is another blog that I follow from a friends' sister.

As I read her words, it just jumps out at me and just tugs at my heart on how much this woman does not value herself. It's so scary to see those words that she writes and see myself in her shoes; not completely but in a LOT of the instances that she describes.

She recently came out of a very abusive relationship and even though I have never been in that type of relationship, there are things that she described feeling while in the relationship that I have felt in past relationships.
There are things that she has described in her blog that she has just recently done that I did when I was younger. And she believes that she can never forgive herself for what she has done, but you do. You might not ever forget the things that you have done, but with time, you learn how to forgive yourself.

For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Matthew 6:14-15

And I have lived by that... because it was only when I forgave myself for my past doings was I able to move forward. Our heavenly Father does not want you to dwell on the past but to live for the bright future that we have ahead of ourselves.

And forgiveness is what leads to love... love towards others... love towards life... love of ourselves.

And that is completely true... we don't forgive others for what they have done to us or forgive ourselves for what we have done so that it's done and over with. We forgive in order to move forward in life.

With that, I will end my year and start it forgiving myself for the mistakes that I have made (and continue to make) and know that this new year will be full of mistakes, but that I need to continue to learn from them and move on.

So wishing everyone a very special New Year!

Until my next entry next year ;-)