I got through it... YIPPEE!!

I got through the dreadful one year anniversary of that phone call from the OBGYN telling me that I was in the early stages of menopause!! 

And I got to my appointment for the pap smear and the other test that is needed for the fertility specialist. I should get those results by the end of the week and get those to the specialist right after.

The date of September 24th is starting to look a little better than it did last year. :-)

And tonight is my weigh in at Weight Watchers... I am hoping for great results at the scale but still nervous about the way that things just weren't sitting well in my stomach this weekend. Hopefully the scale will be my friend tonight. 

I really want this time around at Weight Watchers to be the last time... I want to get to my goal weight and be done with it. 
I know that getting to goal is going to be a long journey but I am so ready for this journey to be over. 
I want to feel so much better about myself, than the way that I feel right now. 
I want to look so much better than I do now... I want to fit in my clothes better and look good doing it.

This promise I have made to myself... but this time around, I am putting it out there for the world to see. Hold me accountable for the promises that I am making to myself, world. I know that this is something that I only can do, but maybe putting  it on the web, I can't face the discouragement of letting myself down once again. 

I must keep dancing until the world ends... until I finally see that the journey is over and nothing but the up-keeping of myself is left.

Starting tomorrow, there is only 2 months until my 35th birthday... so I have to lose as much as I can until now and then. I want to look like a totally different person by the time my birthday comes around.
Maybe instead of buying myself a nice present for my birthday, I'll do something better... get this weight off for good.

I don't think that I can get to 35 pounds by my birthday, but I am going to get as close as I can to a 25 pound loss in 8 weeks that I can. And hopefully, with the grace of God and my strength, I will make it there.

And only then, will I go out that week to get something nice to wear... maybe go out the weekend after my birthday to someplace real nice. HMMMM... 35 is a big birthday, so I have to make sure that I live it up! 
Only 5 years until I hit the big 4-0... so I want to look fabulous for that birthday, so I have to take care of it now before it's too late. And doing this for myself isn't a bad present at all.