The dreadful day is here...

Even though the events of this day last year will never leave my mind, I have great hopes that I can change the course of my life one day at a time. 

The appointment that I couldn't make it to on Saturday, thankfully I was able to reschedule for today especially since I will already be there with Mayalis to get her her annual flu shot.

Making steps into the right direction. They might be small, but the steps are the right ones... and they are the ones that I need to take in order to get things in order in my house. 

The good vibes and news towards my goals for my family just keep on coming... and they say that Monday's suck.  I can honestly say that even though today is the dreadful anniversary of the day that I found out that I am perimenopausal, other things have been happening today that are starting to make this day a bit more bearable. 

I will get through this terrible hump in my life... I have the greatest support system in the world, my family.

I can go on and on writing on here... there is so much that I have to do here at work before I am out the door but yet I am so drawn to continue writing on here. I don't know why. 

I just want to express the way that I REALLY feel about certain things... but do I really want to put that out there? I want to continue to make comments about things but to no avail that things will change. 
It's not like things in my reality are going to change... as I seem to catch myself saying...

And that is the way that I see things now... and I try not to take things personally but when it continues and continues, how are you supposed to take it?

But I continue to try to live the life that I need to for myself. And I will continue to dance to the tune in my heart.