Part 2 ~ The Waiting Game

And the waiting game begins... I heard from the doctor's office this afternoon. They emailed me to let me know that they have sent the referral into the insurance company and it should be 5 to 7 business days before they hear back from them on the decision.

So here I am... playing the waiting game. I am wondering what direction this referral can go. Since it's a new insurance, they can easily deny the referral and that will be the end of the road there. But the other direction is that this referral is the right one... the one that will finally go right. 

Don't get me wrong, I am super happy about my little girl and the fact that we were blessed to have her in our life. But I have to be strong and keep pushing to get her a little sibling. 

It's going to be an uphill battle to see what awaits me on the other side of this mountain that I am climbing but I am looking forward to seeing what is on the other side. I may not be happy with the outcome - or I may be happy with it - but once I know what is waiting for me on the other side, I think that the decision that needs to be made will be easier to make. 

And I know that I shouldn't be worried about how long this journey is going to take... but I don't want to be wondering about this forever. I know that these difficult times are something that will always be with me as a memory of how far I have along in my life... and a reminder that I am stronger than I truly believe that I am.

I laugh because I am scared... I yell because I am scared... I am scared because I truly am scared. I continue to be knocked down with the things that are happening in my life but I will continue to stand up and face things head on. That is the way that I need to continue to do things in my life... not afraid of the consequences because you only live once - and you have to live life to the fullest.


And once I have climbed this "mountain", I am sure that there will be another mountain that I will come face-to-face.

• A mountain that will test me
• A mountain that will test my faith
• A mountain that will test my strength

And I pray that I can continue to stand on my feet and climb until I can no longer climb.

I hope that I will be able to give that same strength that I am holding inside of me now onto my beautiful daughter... pass it along to her just like a stone. Something that she can always turn to and know that she will always have with her, no matter what the situation may be. Something that will always be instilled in her... a fighter waiting to come out and defend what she believes in.